"You can't always get what you want. But if you try sometimes you just might find, you get what you need."
Mick Jagger- Rolling Stones
I love space and I love night gazing. I hope it is not too cloudy to see some of Perseid. After last night's "Hell on Wheels" got my inner Gloria Steinem alive and ranting, I wanted to write a "softer" post tonight and take a minute to think of all of the things I'm grateful for: the meteor shower tonight, grace in small moments, my husband and boys, friends, mothers-in-law and extended family.
I have always been a person who likes immediate results, cause and effect. You do one thing and another happens. That's not the way relationships with others are. They're messy and complicated and layered and everything I'm not good at! I like organized, categorized and - did I mention?--clear cut cause and effect. I am a man trapped in a woman's body!
In the past I've been laughingly guided by friends to a song by the Rolling Stones, "You can't always get what you want". While they said it jokingly, the words to that song are so true. I definitely get what I need and I'm so grateful. My life isn't turning out to what I thought I wanted. For years, I thought I wanted to travel and work in large companies, working my way up to middle management and then Creative Director but every twist and turn I made in my twenties led me further away from my dream.
After choosing to become a mom though (and both of my boys are choices, I'm prochoice and I get pregnant if I cross my eyes, take a sip of bourbon and look at a man wrong! j/k!), I started becoming re-acquainted with myself, a re-awakening. I'm so grateful to get a second, third, fourth and upteenth chance! --I need them!
*Find something you're grateful for and see if you can catch the stars tonight!